I hate it when my kids leave me for their dad’s. I’m not saying I don’t want them to see their dad, but I hate it when they go. I hate the sudden stillness in the house, a stillness that will last five days until they return. When they go everything changes. When I’m on […]
Category: Love & Loss
New Year
I’m about to board my Hawaiian Airlines flight back to Seattle and sit here by the gate with the same lump in my throat that I get every time I have to leave Ty. You’d think after three and a half years it’d get easier going. You’d think that knowing I’ll see him in three […]
When You Know
When you know what matters. When you know what’s true. When you listen to that little voice inside yourself and the little voice is so damn tired of telling you its so damn tired… The books are all good. But this many? This much? For what? Yes, to pay the bills, and yes, because I […]
Playing Games
The Alpha Mom copy edits are done. That was a big chore. I’d thought the manuscript was pretty clean, but as with Odd Mom Out, I somehow got some of the chronology wrong and then the copy editors got another part wrong and started making changes and by the time the marked up manuscript reached […]
Rx Chocolate
You know its a day for chocolate when: 1) You must drive much loved boyfriend to airport at 7 am 2) Your kids are heading off soon to their father’s for the rest of the weekend 3) Your youngest child is getting socks to put on his shoes for father’s house and suddenly screams, ‘Mom! […]
Anniversaries
Yesterday, August 4th, the Blue Angels flew over Seattle as part of Seafair and being buzzed by the bold blue and yellow F-18s is a highlight of the summer. They make me shiver. They make me cry. I don’t even know why. Maybe it’s just that they do the impossible and I’m moved by the […]
Mother’s Day Contest For My Readers
Mother’s Day is kind of a peculiar day for single moms and I don’t think I ever realized it until I became one. You’d think that being a single mom would make it extra special, you know, the whole ‘celebrate mom’ thing. But the problem is, to get kids to ‘celebrate mom’ there’s got to […]
Prayers & Tears
This will be short. There’s no way to make it long. I’ve found it nearly impossible to write since I learned yesterday morning of the tragedy unfolding at Virginia Tech. Checking into msn.com I read the details as they came in, watched as the body count rose. Today, as the names of the victims are […]
One For The Book
I took one for the book yesterday. That’s my positive spin on my disaster yesterday. I fell apart. I did. I still feel like I’m apart, like pieces of me are flipping and flopping around Bellevue. Last night after a very hard day I took kids to one of our favorite restaurants, a place we’ve […]
Holiday From Me
I don’t want to be a girl. Not today. I’m actually thinking of taking a holiday from being female. It just makes sense. Being female is just way too much work. It involves too much emotion. And the feelings! So many feelings. Feelings everywhere. Just like snails and slugs after a heavy rain. Now here’s […]
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